I'm a Spacer,
Not a Mother
by
Christy
Chapter 1
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Amelia lay in the dark, unable to sleep. It wasn't her husband's gentle snoring
that was keeping her awake, nor was it the wind whistling outside, or the occasional
creaking of the walls. Nor was it a matter of not being tired. It was....what
was it? It seemed to be an odd, restless feeling within her, something that
was troubling her mind that she couldn't place, like when you get a feeling
that you've forgotten something but you can't remember what. She rolled over
in bed, and was momentarily overcome by a slight dizziness. Then as quickly
as the nausea came, it left.
She lay for perhaps a few minutes, or perhaps a few hours...there
was no way of telling. Finally she gave up trying to sleep and decided to grab
herself a spot of tea that might help her rest. As she sat up in bed, the wave
of nausea returned. She struggled to keep her head straight as she slowly climbed
out of bed. Odd, how dizzy she was...she certainly wasn't usually prone to spells.
Well, she only needed a cup of tea. Tea would calm her nerves. She kept thinking
that to herself as she staggered out of the room, occasionally gripping onto
a wall for support.
Sitting on the sofa while sipping tea, the nausea was a bit better,
but it hadn't totally vanished. Neither had that restless sensation inside her.
She breathed slowly and deeply and attempted to concentrate on the tea, but
she couldn't shake off the feeling that something was amiss. Perhaps an old
war injury was coming back to her. Perhaps she hadn't been eating right. Perhaps
she was having difficulty adjusting to the married life. Or perhaps....
"Amelia? Amelia, wake up!"
Amelia slowly opened her eyes to find herself looking at Doppler, dressed in
his bathrobe with one hand on her shoulder.
"Huh?" she said drowsily.
"Er....I hope you got up in the middle of the night and fell asleep
on the sofa," said Doppler. "Otherwise, you sleepwalked down here."
"Would you care to rephrase that, Delbert?" Amelia glared with
tired eyes.
"Well....you weren't in bed, so I assumed you had gotten up before
me....but then I came down here and found you asleep on the sofa. So what happened,
exactly?"
Amelia glanced to the side to see that she was indeed on the sofa.
At first she wondered how she had gotten there, but then she remembered the
circumstances that had caused her to get up in the night and get herself some
tea.
"Er...I was unable to relax last night, so naturally I thought
a spot of tea would soothe me," she said. "But apparatly, its effect carried
through rather swiftly."
Doppler nodded, thinking that it was probably best to not press
the matter further.
Doppler wasn't usually one to offer his wife advice in her personal
business, but it was impossible not to notice her strange behavior at the breakfast
table. She downed five glasses of purp juice, and wasn't touching the food on
her plate. She was unusually quiet, and occasionally she would swoon slightly
and clutch her head.
"Amelia, honey..." Doppler said after clearing his throat, "....are
you feeling all right?"
"Perfectly fine, Delbert," replied Amelia. That wasn't entirely
true; the dizziness from the night before still dwelled in her head, but if
she told her husband that he would be panic-struck.
"Um....are you sure?" Doppler persuaded.
Amelia glared at him. "I don't recall ever asking you to evaluate
my health." She poured herself another glass of purp juice.
"Fine, forgive me for being concerned that you're not eating anything,"
sneered Doppler.
"My diet happens to be my business," snapped Amelia as she downed
the purp juice.
Doppler raised a brow. "You know, one can't survive on purp juice
alone. And besides, cravings are usually associated with something...." He trailed
off as the possibility hit him.
The possibility simultainiously hit Amelia, though she brushed
it off a second later. She cleared her throat. "Well, anyway......where might
our guests be?"
"I believe Jim's still in bed; he was up late studying for the
Acadamy. And Sarah's out getting some groceries."
"Ah, yes," said Amelia. "I should probably get myself used to this
form of silence for when the inn's rebuilt." Jim and his mother were staying
with Doppler and Amelia while the Benbow Inn was being rebuilt.
"Altering the subject," Amelia continued, "the Legacy's in good
condition for her next voyage. I reckon I might be getting a new first mate
before long, though I've managed these past months without one."
Doppler nodded as he pretended to be interested in what she was
saying. A few minutes later, he decided to try a different approach.
"Um, Amelia," he said, "do you...have any plans for this afternoon?"
"Nothing in particular."
"Well then.....this is merely a suggestion...but you might want
to see a doctor this afternoon. Er....a medical doctor, I mean."
"And why do you suggest that?"
"Er....well....you know....mating, it occasionally....bears results?"
Doppler fumbled. "Um...I mean...it's just one simple test, and the sooner you
know the better..."
"What are you saying exactly?" Amelia glared.
"Well...Amelia...do you think it's possible that you're....?" He
glanced significantly at her stomach.
Amelia's eyes widened as he spoke. For a moment she appeared to
be struck speechless.
"Well....do you?" Doppler persisted.
"Delbert..." Amelia finally said, "..normally you're able to offer
solid advice, but with the greatest possible respect, that is a HORRIBLE notion!"
Doppler sighed. "Look, in all my scientific studies I have never
once heard of any evidence that the laws of reproduction are different for feline
spacers, that's all. Now on Planet Vetunis, that's different; they reproduce
by splitting in half, but your kind, and my kind too, for that matter..."
Amelia raised a hand to hush him. She was showing no emotion, but
secretly she was desperately hoping that he was wrong. All her life she had
been a fighter, an explorer, an adventurer, a commander, and most of all, a
capable, fearless spacer.
But she didn't think she could ever be a mother.